Mason: Grace, Mercy and Peace unto You,
from God, our Father and our Lord Jesus Christ,

Let me answer your endless excuses with a quote from someone else: If you really want to change you will find a way, but if not you will find excuses.

After many months of counselling, mentoring, emails, etc; it seems you WERE making progress, but got stuck in lie mode; Now as if calling God and his grace a lie; Now blaming grace for your flaw mode. So let me say this about such: the blame game always ends in shame. Good luck with such.

The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ [be] with you all. Amen.