Grace unto you, and peace,
from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.
Let us compare your posts of 2008 and 2009:
Notice the change (for the "worse") in your posts:
My Testimony = grace, but still childish (2008)
My Testimony = law, emergency, blame game (2009)
I remind you of Matthew 12:43-45's "last state":
"When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places, seeking rest, and findeth none. Then he saith, I will return into my house from whence I came out; and when he is come, he findeth [it] empty, swept, and garnished. Then goeth he, and taketh with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last [state] of that man is WORSE than the first".
The miss-take you made was not knowing the difference between DRIVEN and LED. Ye are not under the law, but under grace, if LED of the Spirit.
I enCOURAGE you to put away the schoolmaster that fails every student: the law. It drives, not leads; and then it punishes you for being driven. Go figure.
The GRACE of our Lord Jesus Christ WITH YOU ALL. AMEN.